In Mermory of Grandma

I know I will see them again.

    Early in the week we got the news that josh's grandma Carole Rae past away. We immediately got work off for Thursday and Friday and started to plan out trip to Idaho Falls, Idaho for the early weekend. Thursday we got in the car and headed down to Idaho.  Josh's grandma was the first out of both sets of grandparents to die. This event helped me to look back on memories of my grandpa and grandma Smith who died when I was young.

       I was in elementary school when my moms parents passed away; knowing someone that died at a young age was scary. Even though I was young I still have some great memories of my grandparents. My mom and I would fly to St. George to visit them a couple times a year. Its hard to remember a lot about there house in  St. George, the thing I remember most is the neighborhood pool right across from there house, it was there where I learned to love to swim. My Grandpa was a bigger man, he loved his chair and T.V. that was set up in the back room. Grandpa Smith worked as a skipper in pearl harbor when it was invaded, later he received a purple heart for getting injured serving our country.  As a young girl I would sit in the garage in a small metal chair in front of a WWII drawing of a ship that was in Pearl harbor as grandpa rambled off. My grandma whom I was named after was a tall, very slender lady with a frail frame. She looked forward to her shampoo sets. My grandma collected precious moments which I loved to look at, if I was lucky I was able to take them out of the glass case and hold them. she always wore a gold watch that would pinch baby fine arm hairs on my arms every time I would sit next to her! Grandma Smith always had a big pot the flowers, alot of the time they were Ssnapdragons in the back yard which would keep me occupied squeezing the flowers gently to open and close the petals on the flower that resemble a mouth. I used to always sneak up on my grandma and scare her when she was washing dishes. My mom said, she used to be a swim suit model back in her early years, as she worked down at the ship yards during the war. My grandpa Eddie was on leave and met my grandma Yeteve in downtown Portland. I wish I could have gained a relationship with them when I was older. When Eddi and Teve started to go down hill they moved up to Oregon so my parents could help take care of them. This was a ruff time for my mom and for me as a young girl I got jealous of the time my mom spent on helping them out. I wish I could have made it easier on my mom. Sorry Mom.

      I have only known Josh's Grandma Carole Rae Taylor for three and a half years. From all the stories that I have heard about her I feel like Iv known her a lot longer. Carole Rae was born in 1932, she loved to dance and loved spending time in the outdoors and enjoyed nature. Grandma and grandpa Taylor loved each other very much, it was heart breaking seeing Don take it so hard. Marriage can be such a beautiful thing. To see someone take care of there loved one for so long, always being positive and constantly letting everyone know how much they truly are blessed to take care of that person, is an attribute we should all strive for in our life. I have enjoyed getting to know Grandma Taylor, And my prayers go out to grandpa Taylor.

Me, Don (Grandpa Snow),and Josh

Carole Rea won the Shirley Temple look alike contest she she was a small girl. I love all these photos of her. I often wounder what pictures will people remember me by at my funeral. 

Carole Rea Oswald Taylor

I know I will see all my loved ones again up in heaven, And I cant wait until that day.

Rest in Peace

Tangled

My life has been TANGLED.

The great debate!

I am attending collage at Utah Valley University. Its been great I have truly enjoyed learning. I am taking Math and English. Now that the semester is coming to a end my lack of work ethic is running low and I'm dragging my feet to sign up for classes in the spring. I have started to ask myself what I'm trying to get out of collage. Is it worth paying almost $2,000 a semester if I'm not planning on graduating? Can I devote my time to school? Would it be worth it in the end? I wanted to go to school to learn about subject I'm interested in is it worth the money?

Recently I visited a doctor, I prayed something would be wrong with me! 

 Sense middle school I have dealt with stomach pain when I eat most foods. This has lead to many doctor visits traveling around Oregon seeing the top specialist trying to track down the cause of my discomfort. I was poked, pricked.I had cameras shoved through my body going up and down. I have swallowed dye, laid on tables that move in and out up and down. Force to restricted or over indulge on liquid controlling when I can or can not urinate. I was hospitalized for days at a time, leading to hospital staff knowing me by name. All leading to the same test result's NOTHING IS WRONG! After spending so much time trying to figure out where the pain was coming from and being told by doctors There is no pain or there is no cause for this pain it had over time affected the way I have looked and thought about myself and doctors. Last week I had more blood test done seeing if my thyroid, iron was in control plus I did a lot of blood work seeing again if I could be allergic to any foods. Of course I got my hopes up thinking this was going to be different. The thought finding out what I could and couldn't eat would be a simple solution. Unfortunately it wasn't, leading to disappointment.

 "Happy"

I am so excited for winter! Snow, Christmas lights, snowboarding. This winter were going to Portland for Christmas my favorite place to be during the holidays! I recently watched a documentary called "Happy" it talked about how people are more happy if there active and always doing something new. This winter I'm going to take up cross country skiing for something new. Last summer I took up mountain biking and I love it! Winters are hard in Utah if you don't like the snow, but the more activity's I find to do outside the more i can appreciate the beautiful state I live in!